Elizabeth's Story: It's May...

Elizabeth's Story

...previously an update for friends & family about Elizabeth Hill and her fight against her childhood cancer acinar cell carcinoma of the pancreas
...now a place for remembering the fiesty princess she was.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

It's May...

and that means Elizabeth's 7th birthday is coming up. This is not easy. Elizabeth wanted a 10-day Disney cruise for her 7th birthday... I sure hope God is giving her something way better up there, because she sure deserves it!

Matt wanted to have a big birthday party for Elizabeth here at the house, complete with bouncer and cake and a huge balloon release. I considered it for awhile, and thought that we could even have a toy drive for Children's Hospital in Elizabeth's honor to celebrate her birthday. I think it's just too much for us right now, though. What an emotional rollercoaster... fine one day, a wreck the next--so hard to predict. We just miss her so much.

Elizabeth's classmates have already decided that they want to have a birthday party for her in class, so I think I'd like to be there for that. Maybe even bring balloons for them to attach notes for Elizabeth to and release. I think I'd like to do a toy drive, too, sometime later down the road. We still have most of Elizabeth's Christmas presents still packaged (unwrapped, just never opened up to play with--she was just too tired to play any more--I know she plays a lot now!) waiting to be donated to CHLA. Elizabeth likes that idea and wouldn't have it any other way.

After a lot of thought and discussion, we've decided for me to pursue teaching through LAUSD. I just registered last LAST minute for the CSET exam that I will be taking this Saturday. It is the 19th, which marks 3 months since Elizabeth died. I don't miss her any less, but I am happy knowing that she is happy. I feel her so many times around me. Now when I cry, it's less about being sad about everything she endured the last few months or about everything she never got to do. It's more about just missing her and wishing I could watch her grow up. She was my only daughter, my special little girl. I know she misses us, too, but every time I get really really sad I can almost hear her telling me what I told her as she died in my arms--I love you and we'll all be together again really soon. Oh, how I miss her!

So the test is Saturday--all five hours of it. I'm taking two general science tests covering everything from astronomy to geology to physics to optics to magnetism to enviromental science to biology to cells, and more... and one subject specific test for Chemistry. It will be a joy--to have it done with. As long as I pass, I have a decent shot at getting into the district's credential program--assuming I can get Pepperdine to release my degree... ah, but that's another story which involves me giving them lots of money to finally pay off my tuition. Just more hurdles... feels like they just keep coming. Anyway, I hope this is the right path. The health insurance alone is worth a ton. Please pray for wisdom in this area. We are so at a crossroads.

Please keep all the kids still fighting for their lives in your prayers. I am so thankful for everyone who helped us keep Elizabeth alive, medically, emotionally, and spiritually. And we are thankful for everyone who still checks in on us and the boys. I want to do something that helps pay back in some way... I'm still so so so thankful to Trinity Kids LA hospice. They helped us cope during the worst times we ever faced. I feel like they are a huge part of our family, and yet we only knew them in the last weeks. Big hugs to all of you who still love Elizabeth and pray for the rest of the cancer kids!

5 Comments:

At 4:38 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Emilee,
I'm so proud of you. Good luck on your test. Please let me know if you need help when you decide to hold a toy drive, I am all yours anytime. You are still in our prayers and thoughts.I love you very much.

Sara C.

 
At 1:58 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I still check for updates. And I have been thinking of Elizabeth as the 24 th is comming up. I know is going to be hard for you that day. I know you miss her so much.
I wish you all the best in the future .
Hugs and love,
Trine

 
At 12:27 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello Em and Family,
I still think about you and your amazing family every day! Our prayers and thoughts are with you and we are wishing you a ton of luck on your test this weekend.

I have the beautiful picture of Elizabeth you gave me and it's with me always.

Please keep in touch and give me a call when the boys want a visit from Ozzie.

Lots of Love,
Carrie Anne Blevins

 
At 1:29 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Good luck on your new endeavors! I know it's a drive, but I think there are spots open in the Hart District in Santa Clarita area for science teachers, just in case you want to look into that. I just wanted to let you know that I think of Elizabeth so many times a day, and especially with her birthday coming up. I hope that you can celebrate her life here and know that where she is, she's celebrating as well. We miss you, and hope to see you soon. My offer still holds for Pirates if you need.

With love and prayers,
Ayesha

 
At 6:20 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Emilie~
I think of you every day and am wishing you all the best with the test. I hope you get the job and many other well-deserved blessings. I will be thinking of princess Elizabeth on her birthday and will think of something special to do to honor her on that day. Hugs to you, Tina in MA

 

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